I’M ANXIOUS AS F, NOW WHAT?
‘Whenever my busy thoughts were out of control, the soothing comfort of your presence calmed me down and overwhelmed me with delight.’ Psalms 94:19 TPT
‘In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul.’ Psalms 94:19 NKJV
If you have ever run your own business, it seems anxiety and worry are an every day thing. I started a business a few years back in Australia. Just about every day I would be bombarded with some sort of worry. My brain would ping pong with thoughts like this.
How long will the client stay on?
Where will new clients come from?
Is my work good enough?
Do we have enough coming in to be able to take the kids out for dinner?
So yah, worry was f’n with my brain every day. The only way I knew to battle against it was with the Bible. I found scriptures that gave me courage in my business. Every single day I would walk around an oval park near our house and declare those scriptures over me, my family and my business. Just tried to get my Romans 12 vibe in motion.
‘And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.’ Romans 12:2
What sucks about anxiousness is also a blessing about it. This verse in Psalms brings us INTO anxiousness and out of it in one verse. Being anxious sucks but here in Psalms, David responds with, “the soothing comfort of your presence calmed me down and overwhelmed me with delight.’
Think about that statement for as long as you can. I find meditation to be something of this sort. Just take that sentence, “the soothing comfort of your presence calmed me down and overwhelmed me with delight,” and I’ll repeat it over and over. Then, I’ll thank God for the verse and for his promise. I’m like, “yo … yah, I’ll take me summa that right now!”
Take time to meditate on the Bible, not just on breathing exercises in some app.
To be honest, I’m anxious right now. My wife has been in bed battling asthma and allergies for way too long. Usually it’s maybe a day or so in bed. This time, it’s quite a bit different. Most of the day and through the night she’s coughing and coughing and coughing. You don’t want to imagine the worst but the thoughts come in your head. Does she have the ‘Rona’? (At this point, she’s trying to get tested, but there’s not enough tests in our area).
Just last night I was sitting on the couch listening to music and hearing her cough in our room. My mind began to wander to all sorts of black hole thoughts. I immediately had to tell them to shut the f*** up. I was like, “awe hell na! Healing is in our home. By the stripes of Jesus we are healed. Jesus took our infirmities and bore all our diseases.”
And you know what, the worry subsides. The black hole closes up and peace returns.
As much as battles in our life suck, they are necessary. These are the defining moments of our life. This is when we know where we stand in our walk. This is the time to be excited about what God can and will do in your life. This is the time to sharpen your f’n sword and get to work. If you’re ok with worry and your battles, then reach the f out to someone. See if they are ok.
I want to say more, but the kids are going nuts. Lior is running around naked, crying (she’s 2) and pretty sure she’s hungry … AGAIN! I think I missed an update for Aaliyah’s 2nd grade home school class and Roscoe is trying to get at me about some 4th grade mathematics.
So, sorry to be scattered on all this. It’s not perfect but hope it helps. We are all in this together.
Let’s pray:
Jesus, you’re the ultimate gangster of peace. I need it, I want it and will share it with others. You are my source for EVERYTHING. Thanks for making me who I am. I will fight the battle of faith. I’m ready. Let’s go! Amen.
